Saints And Serial Killers
The Green River Killer Chart Review
Gary Ridgeway is infamous as the Green River Killer, a serial killer who held sway in the Seattle area throughout the 80’s and 90’s, operating before the advent of DNA technology. I will review the details I find most pertinent to understanding his chart. He’s an iconic, prolific murderer with some serious issues clearly visible in his chart, which makes him interesting astrologically.
Gary Ridgeway was charged with killing 49 woman and teenage women. At this time, he has confessed to killing 71 women in the King County area. The number is thought to be as high as 90. He remains in the Washington State Penitentiary in Walla Walla until his death.
Gary’s life seemed to revolve around his sex life. He had an avid interest in prostitutes and was married three times. He bought a home nearby “the strip” in Tacoma that was a popular place for street prostitution during the time he was active. He spent most of him time roaming the strip, searching for and observing women. He perfected his techniques and seemed to have a real instinct for his self-appointed “career”. The police sought him for decades. His was on their list of suspects, but they could not pin the crimes on him until the advent of DNA. He was arrested in November of 2001, at his place of work.
He picked up prostitutes and run-aways, took them to a secluded area, or his conveniently near-by home, and strangled them with his arm while having sex from behind. He later said that he learned that if he was behind them, he was less likely to get wounds from his victim’s struggles. Can’t be showing up to work with a scratched up face all the time, that doesn’t look good.
He said he would say he wanted to do it from behind, and then pretend to hear something so that they would look up as well, and then he could get a good grip on their necks. He choose strangulation as his method of dispatch, a strenuous and lengthy method of killing. Strangling is so personal. One victim who did escape said she felt like his “anger doll”.
He took their bodies to secluded and hard-to-reach natural places, and stashed them in loose groups. They were often found by men trying to access the river for fishing, or children exploring the woods. Gary later revealed that he put them in groups so that he could find them later. He would revisit their bodies later for sex, and even admitting to brushing away insects so he could enjoy himself. He later also confessed to bringing his wives to places nearby for outdoor sex. Gary was an enthusiastic outdoorsman, and the whole world was his jungle. He killed throughout the 1980’s and 90’s.
His childhood was reported to be fairly normal for the standards of the time. At a closer look, it sounds like there were some serious issues going on with the mother. Reportedly, his mom was oppressive and hyper-interested in Gary. Gary Ridgeway is considered low IQ, and his mother apparently wouldn’t let him forget it for a moment. She was said to harp on him constantly about his poor school performance, and threaten to send him to a “home for retarded children”. She seemed to also enjoy trying to sexually arouse her male children. I believe that her behavior built up a bank of rage and frustration in her child, that fueled his later killing sprees. She created or enhanced severe wounding to his ego and psyche that never seemed to heal.
His mother was a weirdo on the sexual front as well. Gary was, of course, a bed-wetter. Apparently his mom, upon discovering an accident, would parade him out in front of the family to the shower, where she would wash his genitals with great attention to detail clad only in her night things.
The mother worked in the menswear section of a department store. She would regale her family at night with stories of her male customers genitals, gleaned as she helped them try on suits, including what the male genitals smelled like.
Not much is said about the dad, except that he worked at a mortuary and jokes about having sex with the customers. He was reported to be an extremely passive man, who didn’t interfere much with her activities with the children. Some people claim they were a perfectly normal suburban family, while others report violent fighting between the parents. Physical discipline was used in the home, but not more than was considered normal at the time.
So, while it is not reported that he was physically abused, it seems clear that both of his parents were creeps. I think his mother could be considered mentally, emotionally and perhaps sexually abusive to her son. Gary reported having feelings of sexual attraction to her as an adolescent, and said he fantasized about killing her. She seems to have compacted frustrated feelings of impotency and wrath in her son. Thanks bitch.
Throughout his life, Gary seemed to shift his troubles onto others, rather than wondering what was the matter with him. He later claimed if he had a nice woman to come home to at night, instead of bitch, maybe he wouldn’t have killed so much. Gary was a blamer.
He spent much of his free time as an adult hunting on the strip, an area of highway between Tacoma and Seattle on the way to the airport that had alot of cheap hotels and seedy bars. This was the most active area for street prostitution in the local area.
Gary displayed a natural cunning when it came to his crimes. He placed bodies on steep, wooded slopes heavy with undergrowth. The elements quickly removed any evidence that would have been left behind. A decade before DNA was in use in criminal investigations, Gary was trimming the girl’s fingernails to remove any material that might have been accumulated during their struggles.
Though the police did contact him several times during the investigation, they weren’t able to arrest him until the breakthrough of DNA technology tied him to four of the woman discovered along the Green River.
Per usual, people who knew him were shocked when Gary was arrested. He was the epitome of mousy and ordinary. In fact, he had used his modest and dim-seeming appearance to his advantage while hunting, agreeing with the women that the killer must be a big strong guy. He lived in a home not too far from the strip. He did not drink or do drugs, and attend church with his family. He worked at the same truck painting plant most of his adult life. He had been married three times, and now has been divorced three times, one of the marriages creating a son.
He seemed fairly normal to the people that knew and lived with him, although one of his wives made comments about him sometimes coming home late at night all wet and dirty. All his wives did report that he had an insatiable sex drive, demanding sex several times a day, and wanting to have sex in inappropriate places.
Most people seemed to find him a little weird, but mild and innocuous. For the most part no one in his life suspected him. Although, towards the end of his career, the police had contacted him so many times about the case, that the people who worked with him referred to him as “Green River Gary,”….which he totally was.
He shocked police by trying to be chummy with them upon his arrest. He indicated he felt they were on the same team, and he was helping them to control these street women. His case had been one of the most heartbreaking for the Seattle police and everyone else involved. When he realized how seriously they were taking his crime, he collapsed into vagueness.
Though he had angrily dispatched many innocent women and girls, he himself did not want to face the death penalty. He made a deal with the police to avoid the death penalty, by agreeing to make a full confession. This did not go well, according to police. Gary is a mumbler, and claimed not to remember much, despite almost inadvertently revealing a pretty accurate map of the graves of these unfortunate woman in his head.
The detectives pressed him to make a full confession, threatening him with the death penalty if he did not provide them with the information he had agreed to provide.
He did eventually lead them to several bodies previously undiscovered, but, he was a terrible communicator and hard to work with. Most serial killers relish bragging up their careers, but Gary was a mumbler, who claimed to forget most of it, including the faces of his victims. He retracted earlier comments regularly and was impossible to really contact. It was hard to believe that this weak man was one of America’s most prolific serial killers, the exact extent of his crimes being unknown to this day.
In the end, he claimed that murdering young woman was his “career.”
February 18, 1949, 7:00 am, Salt Lake, Utah, the moment the monster is born. The city is still for a moment, then a dead leaf lifts and blows from the sidewalk, silently lifting… The world starts to move again after a breath, but… something has entered.
So let’s all take a look at the chart of old Gary Ridgeway, the benighted soul that he is.
The first thing I see is a scribbly, messy chaos. I don’t see the patterns. I do see lots of squares, that means lots of challenges and frustrations. Squares are good, our challenges are what make us grow and give us strength, and a bit of backbone and fight. Lots of squares though…it’s like you can’t move because every time you do, a nail is driven in. Blocked in. His chart, it just looks tight… yet also very busy. It looks hectic.
It’s hard to read. What I like to do is to change the amount of information in the chart, so I’m only seeing the most powerful connections. I change the setting of the chart so that only the strongest aspects are shown. You can see in the red where it says Orbfact=60%, that’s where I choose to set the aspect strength at 60%, That weeds out all those seven to nine degree aspects that are interesting, but aren’t the driving force of behavior like these stronger aspects are.
The first thing I notice is that Gary has three strong oppositions in his chart. You can see those bright red lines crossing the inner circle there. This means that the two planet where in opposite signs at pretty much the same degree. To the minds of the ancient ones, planets aspected thus were able to cast their beams upon each other, usually with horrid results.
The opposition is pretty much the most difficult aspect to have in your chart. A strong opposition represent major, extreme internal clashes between different parts of your psyche. Either you have two competing value systems that you’re trying to appease, or you have a set of opposite yet strong urges, usually one socially approved and one more privately indulged.
So as I was first looking at this chart I would be like, oh damn! He has three oppositions! Sun opposite Saturn! And Mars is conjunct the Sun and also opposite Saturn! And Pluto opposite Venus too… like, tightly, perfectly opposite. The tensions are running so high here. Gary sure has a lot to loose.
So, holy shit, I can see this person has some big issues, as I check out how close and tight all these oppositions are. Of course right. I’m sitting there with my husband, watching all these crime shows. And I’m way into astrology. So I’m watching these creeps thinking, wow. His chart must be a mess. And it was!
The first opposition I notice is the Sun conjunct Mars opposite the planet Saturn. The Sun is at twenty-ninth degree of Aquarius, and Saturn is retrograde at three degrees Virgo. The Sun is just about to tip over into the sign of Pisces, approaching perfect opposition with Saturn in about three or four days. The energy is swiftly growing towards its climax.
I would say that Gary probably presented with the Aquarius Sun conjunct Mars in Pisces. He would have seemed detached and a bit aloof, (Aquarius) also non-violent and non confrontational, maybe even weak (Pisces). The kind of person who seems to be crouched over a bit, as if trying to protect some basic inner flaw. Not much eye contact, resentful but submissive posturing.
What he would have been hiding was an inability to connect with people on a one-to-one basis, perhaps because of some pickiness or criticalness of his own. Saturn is in Virgo, Saturn is a planet having to do with restrictions and unwieldiness, and Virgo is immersed in a world of detail, for better or worse.
He may have privately thought everyone was kind of gross, fussily picking up on small physical imperfections or habits to be turned off by. This sort of reaction is the kind of thinking/behavior that could have helped him distance himself from victims, kind of turn himself off to them by observing their disgusting humanity. Letting it irritate him.
He also could have projected criticism coming from others onto himself. His mother was highly critical of him, and he may have felt that everyone he met would critique and reject him in the same way. This would have been a strong preoccupation in his life, owning the the important personal planets and the fact that it lays across the significant axis of the chart, the Ascendant and Descendant. This axis is the horizon of the chart, the sunrise and sunset of your personal diurnal cycle. Planets that appear near the Ascendant or Descendant have powerful access and a powerful impact on the external life.
So Gary would have gone through this dance with every human that he met, the dance of trying to seem inoffensive, cringing and waiting for negative signals from people. He wouldn’t be able to get away from it, and feel easily comfortable or confident in interpersonal interactions. I can see how this would make it really easy for him to choose to exit the human race.
Saturn opposite the Sun is a famously devastating aspect, not uncommon in the charts of alcoholics and drug addicts. It really is as if the identity, the true independent solar identity is crushed somehow, and therefore unable to cope with life in a normal way. They struggle mightily with their existence in a way that is hard for others to understand.
Usually the fact that Mars is conjunct the Sun would add alot of power. Without being in a room with him, it’s hard to know how intense his identity came off, or how well he hid behind his persona. But have Mars caught with the Sun in the beams of Saturn would really up the frustration level. All of the masculine planets are implicated in the same disaster.
Mars is also very close to being exactly opposite Saturn, it’s two degrees away, moving on the other side of strong. So it’s a waning aspect, but still a very potent one. Mars is our drive and willfulness. We are always trying to do Mars. So when ever he tried to be his Mars, someone just moved right in and started picking him to pieces. Mars in Pisces, filled with gracefulness and empathy, is helpless before the relentless onslaught of Saturn in Virgo. The strength of the aspect shows the consistence of the pressure.
These oppositions also form the basis of important patterns called T-squares. T-squares are pictures of the complexes that form our psyches. Aspect patterns are formed when aspects link together and form geometric shapes inside the circle of the chart.
When you see an aspect pattern, you see a functional dynamic in the chart. There are some of the first things I look for when I’m analyzing a chart. Aspect pattern means that a persons energy is organize into a structure that helps them use the energy of those planets. For good or for bad, they’re getting stuff done. T-squares are especially likely to prompt action, because they represent internal tensions that must be dealt with. Aspects that go from one planet to another planet without making contact to much else seem to be harder to utilize. It’s like the person has to really stop, and learn how this trait that they have functions, before they can really do anything useful with it. They have a piece of the puzzle. Gary has alot of aspect patterns, and unfortunately he did get a lot accomplished.
I trace the ends of the oppositions to their focal point plants, to see where this tension going to funnel up to the surface. I see the first big opposition, Sun/Mars opposite Saturn, grounds itself in Chiron in Sagittarius up there on the MC. Just using keywords, this pattern would speak of a terrible wound to his identity itself, in the Sun Saturn opposition, and to relive this, he turns to the world with his pain.
Chiron is still one of the tricky little planets, but I’ve learned that it can have a big impact on people’s lives. It just seems to represent where we are wounded, and we cannot stop being that way. Chiron in freewheeling, adventurous Sagittarius is like what, a pain adventure? He really must be good at transferring, because none of it seemed like it hurt him that much. He didn’t even react that strongly to being arrested finally. That MC is a sensitive point in our chart, it’s really where the world sees us. So, to sum up, this T-square is saying, that the intense wounding to his identity caused him to create so much pain in the world, that that became his identity. It was his career, as he said himself.
Venus, another important personal planet, is trapped in the hypnotic beams of an opposition with Pluto. Venus is kind of our inner lady, she figures everything out for us so we can make our own decisions. To have Pluto hovering there…. It’s so strong, both planets are at 15*, a perfect, high point opposition between sometime something so beautiful and love and the absolute harshest powers of life and death.
Pluto is very harsh, a very strong planet. It is actually one of the most healing planets, but its ways are not gentle. It causes the eruption of the truth, and all else dies before this truth. The thing is… we don’t like all that kinda bizz. Instead of facing the truth about the parts of us that are outworn and need to be cast aside, we start doing all this creepy shit to avoid it. We control, we manipulate, we obsess and plot. The bad reputation of Pluto and its contacts stem more from our avoidance behaviors than Pluto being evil. It’s just… really, really strong. The deadly gravity of it pulls our bones. Gary’s feminine side and capacities are in deep, desperate need of healing and they will be destroyed until they are all better.
His Moon is the focal planet of this T-square. Squared by an opposition between Venus and Pluto, which paints a picture of his mother as the puppet master of his strong desire to kill all the beautiful desirable young ladies.
His Moon is in Scorpio, and just setting into the eighth house. The eighth house is aligned with Scorpio and Pluto, and the three Pluto signatures overlaying the Moon give it a humid, compressed feel… like stagnant water in your basement and a steamy climate. The Moon has to do with mother and mothering, it describes our emotional body and where we find our comfort zone.
Moon is not only square Venus and Pluto, it is also a fourth quarter moon. The waning quarter for that cycle would have been exact a few hours after Gary was born. The waning square is a harsh time, full of challenge and struggling energy. Fourth quarter moon is when you are still laying awake deep into the night, and you just cannot get comfortable. Somethings riding a cross. I heard a TV psychologist describe him as emotionally unhealthy, and it seems like that he certainly is.
The Moon is a very important planet. It cannot function naturally pulled into crossfire of the pulsing struggle between Venus and Pluto. It does not do as a Moon should, warped by these energies.
So basically with your strong oppositions from outer planets to personal planets, you can kind of count your craziness. Now go find your chart so you can see how many you have! We’re all messed up, it’s crazy. Gary Ridgeway has three strong oppositions in his chart, all of which are three degrees or less. They’re very strong aspects. Tensions are running high here.
Usually after noting any major aspects patterns, or lack there of, I would look at the Sun and the Moon, for these two halves of a whole represent most of our personality. I have already seen his Sun and Moon ensnared in these terrible dynamics. By addressing the Sun and the Moon, I’ve already assessed the major aspect patterns in this chart. There is one more aspect pattern there, there is a grand trine in his chart as well. This grand trine involves the Nodes, so I would analyze that aspect pattern during the exploration of the Nodes.
So I would already assess the chart-holder as really wrapped up in his problems, and I would advise this person to attend to their personal problems, as surely, life can’t go on like this.
After that I look at the rising sign and it’s ruling planet. The last thing I look for is the North and South Node, so I can finish up my chart assessment with some sensible advice that personally suits the person with the chart.
Gary is an Aquarius rising with Venus rising, and conjuncting the Ascendant. He was born at dawn, and the Sun was almost rising as well. There’s also the Mars/Sun conjunction to the Ascendant, it’s a bit wide, almost 10* if the time given is correct, but I would say it would probably have an impact, maybe in just a sense of suppression tension, or suppressed ego. Mercury is also not that far above the horizon line, lightly conjuncting Venus. So, there’s alot of action right there around is ascendant. The ascendant is an intimate part of the chart, and without meeting someone, it’s hard to get a sense of how this would all play out. I would note that no matter how he wanted to come off, his presence was a bit intense, and how he interacted with life was always a big deal for him. He wasn’t just coasting. The Venus conjunct the Ascendent is a bit of a sweet note, that maybe he wished to just be friends with everyone equally, on some level. Throughout his chart I do see signs of the sweetness that would have been, had his character develop straight, instead of twisted through the strange desires of others.
I would also note that the ascendant had strong trine to Neptune and an opposition to Pluto. Outer planets can be powerful influences. The trine to Neptune could be sweet and wistful, or it could mean he projected a powerful feeling of being in a fantasy, like, he was straight trippin’. The opposition with Pluto, of course, more perceptive people would have hackles raised when they felt his constant power plays and little games. People who try to act like they’re not, but they’re always wanting to win.
But it’s hard to conjure up how his issues would have impacted his physical presence in the room. I mean, there’s no way for me to know this, but I’ll bet sometimes, he really creeped some people out. With those three tight opposition laced along his Ascendant/Descendant, there’s no way to get away from it. Definitely seems like he would have been one of those getting-sand-kicked-in-his-face-by-a-jock-in-front-of-girls kind of guy.
The ruler of the Ascendant sign Aquarius is Uranus, so I would look for that planet next. Our Ascendant describes how we interact with life. You can’t change it. It’ that thing you do when you meet people, that you always do, even if you wish you didn’t. I like to find the ruler of the Ascendant, because I feel like this is a really personal part of the chart. It’s ours, not like the Nodes, or some of our planetary positions which are inheritances, problems, weak spots or even punishments. Our ruler is… like how you do you. It’s called the chart ruler you know?
He’s got Uranus in Gemini in the 4th house, kinda of on the cusp of the 5th house too. I don’t get a really strong feeling from that, I don’t really understand it. So I would note that I would need to do a little research on that and get some more ideas about that. It’s a weird harsh signature.
The fourth house has to do with the sign Cancer, and the Moon. It tells about how we relate with our families. Gemini is not very compatible with Cancer values. The Gemini sign really likes to be busy checking everything out and seeing what kind of connections it can make. Gemini is smothered in a nest. When I see the sign Gemini, I always think of the keyword “many”. Uranus is also a weird fit for the fourth house. It means revolutionary, shocking, separating, cutting free. It’s a rational, masculine, intellectual energy not well suited for nesting concerns.
Gary was married several times, and always seemed to be in a relationship, although it is also reported that he used his house near the strip as a murder site. Must have been in one of his bachelor phases.
But perhaps that’s just it right there. He did use his home for shocking purposes, and Uranus can defiantly be associated with violence. So, if your ruling planet is how “you do you”, and his personal planet is Uranus in Gemini in the fourth house, then we can say Gary is having his best flow when he’s being violent to an assortment of different individuals in his home. That’s so bad. It shocks and challenges me to see people so consciously making these horrible choices. But, that’s what’s real. People really do.
So it’s a really dissociated energy. I think he also did really want to be part of a family too, because he was married throughout his adult life. He wants to be part of a family, but also doesn’t want to exist when he’s standing there with the family. Certainly important parts of him couldn’t exist when he was with his family. Still, there is a certain sweetness in having your ruling planet in the fourth house. Part of him wants that loving environment.
So weird tug of war between wanting to be intimate with people and be blended in, but still somehow getting to do what the fuck he wants as well. I don’t know… I do see some potential for humanity in his chart…. but I don’t get the feeling from this that he showed up here on earth in this life necessarily wanting to be a good guy.
I look at the Nodes last. I feel like the Nodes of the Moon are really important, and I always want to emphasize their message by doing them last. It’s so much information, I feel like the last important theme might stick in people’s heads while their in the process of learning their story
I feel like the Nodes explain our karma the most clearly. Our souls must be balanced to be well. Unfortunately, trying to survive here on earth does not let us develop absolutely perfectly from moment to moment. Things happen to us, and we have to adapt. The purpose of the Nodes seems to be to demonstrate the direction we have to go, to keep our wholeness. The South Nodes shows were we have mastered. We don’t need to, or can’t develop anymore in that direction.
And it’s not like… just a suggestion. You WILL move in the direction of the north node, or you won’t survive, ultimately. It seems like you’re pretty much free to run around doing whatever as a young person, and the rules of self-responsibility doesn’t apply heavily to young people. But once you’ve become an adult, which means passing through your first Saturn return in the late 20’s, you must move in the direction of the north node. If you do not, your life will be destroyed again and again, until you are moving in the right direction.
Gary’s South Node is in Libra in the 8th house. Gary has been too diplomatic and yielding in his close relationships. I take this to mean he was too yielding to the strange and powerful influence his mother had over him, and he should have stuck up for himself and separated from her a little more. North Node is in Aries in the 2nd house. His mission this time, was to cultivate independence and impulsive boldness a as personal resource.
For me that makes sense. He let his mother define him completely, instead of standing up for himself and developing in a healthy way. The universe does not send us unarmed into battle. Having that North Node in Aries meant he was perfectly capable of using the situation with his mother as a challenging growth situation. He needed to learn that life’s not fair, it’s not going to be fair, and we have to stick up for ourselves in an outward and forthright way.
It’s important with the Nodes to look at the signs and the houses. Because everyone born the same year or so as you will have the same nodal signs, so the houses really personalize the message. His nodes fall across the second and eighth houses. The second house is about resources, which often means our inner resources, even while it describes how we react to our real world resources. The eighth house has to do with our most intimate resources and partnerships. Maybe Mr. Ridgeway partnered with someone he shouldn’t have.
The next thing to look at is the Nodal rulers, for they provide a lot of information. They describe the how and where the actions of the Nodes were and are to take place.
I always look at the ruler of the south node first, for that will give the best indication of past behavior that is problematic and likely to be repeated, or very tempting to the chart holder. Venus is the ruler of Libra South Node and Venus here is in Gemini in the twelfth house. It’s a tricky one, that.
Venus is one of the more troubled planets in Gary’s chart, and that’s really obvious in his life how poorly he reacted to the Venus archetype. If I consider the dissociation tendencies of the sign Aquarius, and the lost, mysteriousness of the twelfth house, and the complications to Venus, I would say that Gary is a soul with a long history of not dealing with problems.
This is not uncommon. I feel like the most disturbing charts that I see show a lot of baggage. People that are unwilling to deal with their personal problems continue to acquire more and more problems as their soul moves forward over time. These types of interpersonal problems with the members of the Self don’t go away over time. They must be sorted out and corrected. The person who continues to avoid their problematic behavior become more and more abhorrent as they adapt more and more to their own problems rather than life itself.
Then I look at the ruler of the North Node. I see this planet and what it tells me as my best chance to develop the best advice I can give the person moving forward with their life.
I don’t feel the ruler of the North Node is in particularly good shape either, but it will still provide me with something good for him to go forward with. The ruler of the Aries North Node is Mars in Pisces in the 1st house conjunct the Sun. Mars is in a complicated position, as per everything in Gary’s chart. It’s part of a powerful T-square full of malefic planets. Mars is strongly placed here in the chart. Mars is in the first house, which is a house Mars rules. Mars is conjunct the Sun which is empowering for any planet. There was plenty of power available for Gary to take hold of his future.
Mars is in Pisces, which is a very delicate and sensitive position. People don’t seem to understand Pisces very well, but I believe that Pisces gift is resilience, and that Pisces has endless resources available to it.
Gary could have been like, “Fuck you Mom. I am a sweet, logical, gentle person and I’m going to devote my life to be independent and sensitive.” He was so small and yet so strong. He probably would have been a great ballerina. Have you ever seen those people? They are little and muscular and they can fly. He could have done something awesome with all that energy and power.
From the sounds of it, Gary did make some progress in his own way. By the time they were able to finally arrested him, he had pretty much stopped killing. He was finally in a loving relationship, and he said that if he had had a nice woman to come home to, instead of a bitch, maybe he wouldn’t have killed so many women.
Here it’s going two ways. On one hand, he’s still not taking responsibility for his own behavior. He’s blaming women for him killing them. But at the same time, he is making some progress. He’s realizing how much his personal relationships affect him, and he is prioritizing making good choices in relationships. A good choice in a partner is someone who doesn’t treat you shitty. You have to value yourself enough to wait for the right person, and to continue to be treated well in your relationships. Perhaps he was coming closer to the meaning of that Pisces Mars conjunct the Aquarius Sun in the first house, with all its troubles. Maybe he was starting to learn that you have to value yourself and your feelings to be able to have a good relationship. In a good relationship, you are able to hold your independence, you are not bent to shape around the other personality. He probably was working his way towards being able to present with his real feelings. But, he did too much and indulged his south node to much, and then his life was effectively ended.
I’m sure only Gary can say how far he got with this in his life. From the looks of things, he wasn’t….ah… really working on himself like he should have. Hope he learned.
So you see, it’s all very sensible really. We have a certain mission that you have to work on, a direction we need to grow. Growing in this direction will straighten out all the other problems in the chart over time. Different aspects in the chart can describe how you will be behaving if you do not grow in the direction that they want you to grow in, sort of the decay lines as your soul become toxic and pathological from trying to grow away from life. It seems like each planet and aspect has it’s own good and evil sides….
In my next post I will use tarot cards to look at his chart in more depth, and create a report focusing just on his Sun. We will look at his evil in more detail, and explore some actions he could have taken to make the best of his difficult chart.